i miss the long conversations that used to happen here. c'est la vie ( Read more... )

fucking fuck. flight or fight response triggered again. this needs to stop so ( Read more... )

since today is fibro day, here's the latest on my ongoing lack of cope, how fibromyalgia has impacted me personally, and both the good and bad in my life in spite of this asshole of an illness.

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i am struggling so hard these days, a ton of the stuff below is very difficult. and social security delays continue to screw me over big-time, so i'm selling off parts of my life history and my soul that i really would prefer not to (along with lots of things i can't or don't wear or use anymore ( Read more... )

hi all… this is not directed at anyone in particular, but i've been overwhelmed by some stuff and wanted to ask everyone to help me out. i love that so many of you care about what's going on with me health wise, that you ask me how i'm doing and listen, that you want me to do things with you. but sometimes the teasing about my newly uber-thin size ( Read more... )

roommate(s) wanted ( Read more... )

last sunday - one of my favorite clubs b4y2k; old school 80's and 90's - synth, goth, industrial, punk, etc. so much good music, people i adore spending time with, and i actually paid for it mostly in advance. bonus flirting with a few friends including my current fwb. someone did steal my nearly full pack of smokes, but meh. i hit center and ( Read more... )

as i start my 50th year on this mostly fucked up planet, i would love to be surrounded by friends, chosen family and good people. help me make it happen if you're in or able to be in los angeles ( Read more... )

in my last post, i mentioned struggling to find the center when i'm dancing, and wondering if it wasn't in part because i was dancing a lot less. nope, apparently not, because for a few minutes at a time friday night i managed to find it before the pain broke through again. the music and my friends and everyone at mal(edcition society) were so on ( Read more... )

hey look, i'm posting! so after 3 months, i'm mostly settled in yet another new place (my friends bought a house in portland so i had to move). this one is a shared apartment in koreatown, which is really a great neighborhood for me. it's much more walkable/public transit friendly to things like groceries, stores, and friends' places and it's just ( Read more... )